Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts

Friday, July 10, 2009

Post-Op Day # 88 - TGIF

Well its Friday once again and the weather is very warm! PHew, sweating to the oldies again! haha! Well actually more like MJ's songs as I bought a 2 disc set from Costco the other day with all his hits and love to crank it in the car --- Heeeeee Heeeeeeeeeeeee! HA HA! Hard to sit still listening to his stuff.

Speaking of Michael Jackson, I still find it bizarre he died but actually am relieved for him because I know he had many demons to deal with over the years.
I feel bad for the kids though, how horrible to loose their father at such a young age. :-(

I actually watched his memorial service online the other day and wow, it was very nice --- lots of his songs sang, many people spoke about him( I loved Brooke Shields, she was amazing!) and the worst part was the very end of the service. They had a bunch of people(including his family) singing Heal the world and We are the world then after that MJ's daughter Paris spoke and it was heart wrenching, she didn't say much(my daddy was the best father etc..) but wow, made my throat tighten up! Bla, it wasn't nice to see her so upset.

Anyways, I will remember him for his amazing voice and dancing ability --- a truely talented entertainer!!!


Today my knee felt pretty good so YAY for that! PHEW, what a week I was having, NOT FUN!

I woke up pretty early and had some coffee while waking up haha -- though I ended up getting a major coffee buzz with some heart palpatitions which sucked but it went away after I drank a bunch of water. haha! weeeeeeeeehawww!

I got organized and went to the ranch for a visit, I stayed for 1.5hrs then came back home to rest up. I didn't want to overdo it on my leg just because it was feeling better.


I had to make a few phones calls to set up a vet appointmet for Frosty during my visit on VI so I got that done. Im a bit anxious to get over there and see what the vet has to say -- umm ya, Frosty started to LEAK MILK last week and I'm totally freaked out about it. Unfortunately she could have been exposed to a few young colts at one farm while the leasers had her!! YIKES. I'm on the fence right now between worry and anger but I have to stay sane because I don't know what is going on yet and the vet will figure it out.

I'm praying to God she's not pregnant because she is a maiden mare and having a first foal at 31 is not a good thing. I'm just lucky that she's in excellent shape/health so God forbid she does foal atleast she's got that going for her.
Anyways I'll let you know how that all goes next week. Fingers crossed its a hormone issue or something!

Like I don't have enough things to deal with with my own health.....haha!

anyways I spent most of the day inside because it was pretty darn hot out!


I had a salad and chicken for dinner so that was tasty. Adam had some veggie pasta/stirfry left overs instead because he doesn't eat salad LOL or rabbit food as he calls it.


I took my 7.5mg of warfarin @ 8pm and now I'm just chillin like a villian! HA HA!

I'm hoping the knee behaves over the weekend and it continues to feel better this coming week so I don't have to worry about it for the wedding.

We're heading to Porcello's Jewelry tomorrow to see what they will give us for the diamond earrings we've been trying to sell(they're beautiful but I can't wear earrings because my ears get irritated).

I also have to dog sit tomorrow so I get to see my buddies Angus and Harley again. :-)


Well we're just going to hang out for the rest of the evening ,we might go for a walk around the block as the temperature is finally cooling off.

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Sunday, June 21, 2009

Post-Op Day # 71 - Sleepy Sunday

Well I slept not so good at the clients place last night but I never sleep that well at that place for some reason -- think its the bed and then I worry about oversleeping and risk the dogs doing some Opps in the house! Never had one yet but don't want to start it! LOL

I woke up, let the dogs out for a while to play, threw the ball and tried to stay awake till it was time to drive home. HA HA!

My client was coming home around noon so I left around 11am that way I knew the dogs would be good just incase they didn't get home till a bit later.

I came home, had some coffee cause I needed a good kick in the pants to wake myself up -phew, didn't work too well either.

We've been in the house all day because it was raining hard, there was even thunder for a bit but now it seems to be clearing up which is great.

I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open.......haha, what a waste of the day. I don't care, Sunday's are for hanging out with Adam and doing whatever we want, including SQUAT! Roflmao!

I did have a nice talk with my dad on the phone earlier today for Fathers Day so that was cool :-)
My mom called me this morning too.....today was talk to my parents on the phone day!

Right now I think Adam is getting his stuff organized to walk then maybe he'll go to the shooting range for a bit. I'm happy just hanging out, I have no energy for anything today :-(

Well unless something exciting happens I'm calling it a day --- too many blogs too type, not enough sleep.............hahaha but hey I made some $$$ so that is good.


btw, tomorro morning I go for my INR testing so we'll see if I'm still over 2.0 --- I did a lot of physical activity on VI, hopefully it didn't drop it too low. haha!

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

Post-Op Day # 61 - A Pretty Good Day

Well today was Adam & my 6yr wedding Anniversary YAY! It's hard to believe it's been that long already, loving every minute of it too.
I'm very blessed to have him in my life, he's definitely my soul mate! <3

I had my INR testing this morning @ 9:45am, it was 2.3 so that was good news plus I get to wait 10 days till my next test! YAHOO, I'm liking that ideal a lot and soon we'll be doing 2weeks in between test. :-)

I zipped over to The Grange to pick up a fly mask for Frosty so I can take it with me on Saturday to the island. I'm so excited to see the ol sassy pony--don't worry I will take oodles of pictures.

After that I drove to see a friend/client of mine who has a nice farm in Issaquah -- it was great to see him, I haven't seen him in a couple years now. I spent quite a while hanging out, watching him and the workers doing some reno's on the house.
I even got spoiled and was able to go down to the old office and get some Zilco(synthetic harness/endurance tack) goodies. He gave me 2 bridles, a tack hanger, some bit hangers, it was so cool, sort of felt like a horsey shopping spree! HA HA!

I finally left there and head to Ross Dress For Less to cruise the isles for a bit -- didn't find anything worth while but wow sure got a good work out walking around -- oh and yes, very amusing I was pushing a tiny shopping cart at the same time. I'd push it in front of me about 3 feet then hobble to it, push it again -- haha, I did that for about 30mins or so.

After toodling around in there I head back home, gosh it had to be around 4pm at that point.

Boy I was pooped by the time I got home, ready to crash out plus I was feeling a bit anxious, not sure why.
I spend an hour or so playing with my new bridles.......haha, too funny! I was trying to figure out which one I wanted to keep for use here and which one to take over to Frosty. DECISIONS DECISIONS.....ack! ROFLMAO!

We had a bite to eat then we watched an episode of House before Adam decided to go skating. I told him to go, I'm so tired tonight and ready to head to bed now.

I took my 10mg of Warfarin @ 8pm -- we're sticking to the same dosages T/Thurs/Sat 10mg and M/W/F/Sun 7.5mg because it seems to be doing the trick. :-)

Well sorry I'm not too exciting but I'm so ready for bed.

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Monday, May 25, 2009

Post-Op Day #44 - Memorial Day!

Well this weekend was the Memorial Day long weekend -- yahooo! Adam has today off which is awesome --just what he needs, an extra day to recoup and rest from his trip to CA!

I have to head out in a few minutes to go help show Mercury to a prospective buyer(YAY, fingers crossed) so I'll be down at RRR for a bit. Though I'm not going to stay too long, I'm so tired again today and don't need to be in the sun for too long or over do it!

Ok, time to update this:

Yesterday as always I was in the barn time warp and half the day was gone by the time I realized it! HA HA!

The people came to see Mercury, I think they liked him but Mercury was VERY lazy and didn't want to do anything --he was extremely trotty which drove me nuts not being able to just hop up on him and show him that he can indeed gait very well if ridden right.

The sunshine was making him dozy too so that didn't help, I think he was on vacation mode(haha) after 4 weeks off of riding. In a way I can understand it.

Not sure if they'll come back again or inquire more seriously but oh well, what can we do about it. Nice people though and they have 92 acres(gasps! LUCKY!).

I had a fun time at the ranch, I even had a sandwich with Julie and some friends of hers who came for a visit. THough I did get TOO much sun on my face and paid for it later on. Ohhhhhhhh the heat, I came home and put ice packs on my face to help stop the burning sensation. oooooo, lesson learned WEAR SUNSCREEN and find shade. I did wear a hat(Thank goodness) and unfortunately the deck(where I sit with my foot up at the ranch) was packed with people so I took a chair that was free(er, ya in the sun most of the day).
I did get up and stand/lean againts the cabin in the shade for 20mins but not nearly enough. ACK! NOT doing that one again.

I finally drove home and had to lay down for a bit. Most of the day was laying about resting but I felt pretty good all things considered.

My ankle felt great after driving to and from the ranch :-) YAY for being able to drive a bit.

Adam went out for a bit and I stayed home, took my Warfarin 7.5mg and watched The Bachelorette! HA HA!

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

Post-Op Day # 43 - He's Back!

Well Adam made it home safely yesterday morning --ofcourse he was super tired from getting up around 4am! EWWW!

I didn't sleep well Saturday night so felt like dog doo first thing so we both laid down for a nap.

We got up later and hung around the house for a bit, it was quite warm outside!

My ankle was feeling pretty good still since the driving on Saturday afternoon! :-) I'm happy about that.

Later on we had a nice steak dinner at the North Bend though I was bummed because I had to give most of my broccoli to Adam, too much VitK is bad for my INR! haha!

It was nice to finally have Adam home --- even though he was gone fro 4.5 days , it felt much longer but I survived. LOL

We went to QFC to pick up a few items before heading home......the hobble around the store was more exercise then I had energy for yesterday UGH! Where's the motorized cart when I need it!?! HA HA! hehe, I do enjoy the one over at Safeway, it makes shopping so much easier and fun *evil grin*.

Took my 7.5mg of Warfarin @ 8Pm

I didn't do anything exciting last night, I was jut too tired and couldn't wait to get to bed for the evening. haha!


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Saturday, May 23, 2009

Post-Op Day #42 - Out For A Drive

Well this morning my foot felt pretty darn good, I think the compression stocking is a good thing after all! I still think it's hideous, hmmm maybe I should draw some horses on it! :-) haha!

I noticed a bunch of bruises on my arm and leg that weren't there before, I think I did it at the barn yesterday(scratches head). I'll keep an eye on that especially with my INR being at 3.4(higher then we want) on Thursday.

I went and checked the mail(took the car keys with me) and then decided to see how the foot felt driving again.

I drove around the block and it felt good so I decided to venture off to North Bend(this time no stopping at the barn).
I went to Blockbuster to get a movie, stopped at Safeway to pick up some creamer, then had a Chai Latte at Starbucks and finally back home. haha!
I was sort of surprised how the traffic wasn't too bad considering its the May long weekend here.

I got home, hobbled back up the stairs and have been chillin out in the house since.
It's beautiful out today, I might go for a wee-chair ride later but we'll see how I feel.

I haven't noticed any extra swelling or pain so that is good(knock on wood) -- test will be later on and in the morning.

For some reason I've been feeling anxious though, it started last night --don't know what that is about.
Maybe things are catching up to me finally? I don't know but I'll keep an eye on it. If I feel weird or anything I will call the Dr and worse case scenario 911 if I feel weak/chest pains/shortness of breath etc...

I've definitely felt more on edge since Adam left Tuesday and that is fair, I mean I'm dealing with so much right now and having him with me gives me a sense of safety and comfort.
This DVT isn't something to take lightly and even though they say the chances of any part breaking off now is pretty slim, there's STILL A CHANCE and that makes me nervous as heck -- I don't need a pulmonary embolism or stroke!!!

Hopefully this feeling will pass and I also have to remember that the new BC pills I started with the progestin only can often make people depressed. Hopefully this isn't that, I don't feel depressed, just anxious.

I'm very happy that Adam will be home in the morning and that we can spend Sunday and Monday(YAY for Memorial day) together :-)

Well about 2hrs till I take my 7.5mg of Warfarin. I'm going to watch my movie and just relax!

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